It's been a while

I feel I've reached the end of the road. Of what, I'm not sure. What I am sure of is that I've reached another birthday milestone. Every year on my birthday I gift myself with a tarot card reading. I find that the reading provides me with inspiration for the upcoming year while uncovering undercurrents influencing my current situation.

This year my Celtic Cross (a basic spread for discovering motives, influences and energies affecting one's life path) started out with the "Self" card (how I currently perceive myself) as the 10 of swords.

                                  
The effect that viewing this card gives, even without knowledge of the Rider-Waite tarot deck, pretty much sums up my experience at this point in my life. The interpretation of this card further sheds light on my experience - and also why I have taken a bit of leave from this blog.

The Ten of Swords in this position signifies a sense of grim relief. At this point you are no longer obligated to exert any more effort because there is nothing more you can do. Under the circumstances, no one can rationally expect you to have any power to change the situation.

 

In a sense, you are free. You may be in shock, flattened, but that is understandable and acceptable. It is best not to try to do anything about your condition at this time. This card gives you permission to surrender to the inevitable. Be assured that in time you will recover, you will again have some wind behind your sails. But for the present, you're just knocked out. Admit it and go with it -- what else can you do?

I understand from previous experience that ultimate surrender leads to a spiritual leap-frog in consciousness. When I "get" at my core a sense of surrender of my way of thinking and acting, I move aside and let a Power Greater than myself take the helm. Today, I know that I have everything I need - a soft bed, a solid roof over my head, food in the fridge, people in my life who love me and AIR CONDITIONING (more than a necessity when daily temps here in eastern Oklahoma top 110 degrees on a daily basis).

I've been sleeping a lot and meditating more. I have found that when life gets scary, narrowing my focus keeps me away from the demons lurking in the shadows. And through my introspection, seeking and experiencing gratitude daily and my faith that this Universe is a friendly place always seeking to support me - and you - a glimmer of light has developed for me... in South Carolina.

My spiritual directions over time have taught me the importance of setting one's intention and take what you get without question. I have found that my Higher Power has the viewpoint that I can not hope to achieve in my limited human perspective. So it would appear that South Carolina it is. I'll "show up" on August 22 as see where life leads me. Exhilarating and terrifying simultaneously. But when I keep in mind that I never walk alone...anywhere...it makes life a little easier.

One final word, I set my intention to discover the Ultimate Intelligence behind where I currently find myself and discovered this video by David Ault. Enjoy!